IM FAT.

ME -.-

108lbs. BMI 16.6. 

bad weekend :/

So i fasted from tuesday through til thursday night which was good (: but when i got weighed i had only lost a pound :/ which was shit for me but my counsellor was all annoyed cause i've lost 3lbs since my last weigh in. He said if ive lost before my next weigh in (2 weeks) he's going to stop me dancing -.- great.
But i'm fasting again anyway, started this morning and hopefully i'll get to wednesday/thursday but it depends on whether my mum or dad make me eat or if i'm about to faint i'll eat something. hopefully i'll be okay though (:

fasting :D

i'm fasting today. I fasted all of saturday and felt amazing for it but then on sunday after a fight with my mum about the fact i wouldn't eat, i left home. She told me not to bother coming back so i went to a friends house until my Dad came and got me and took me to his house, then made me eat -.- grr. Anyway yesterday was really bad cause i eventually came home and ended up eating :/ so i'm making up for it by fasting today and tomorrow :) wish me luck! 
Plus i lost a pound. 
CW: 109
BMI: 16.7.. 
^still obese but not so terrible.

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'Don't be afraid of the shadows, it only means there's a light near by'

I love that quote (: i think it's my favourite. Some other ones i like include:

'You were given this life because you're strong enough to live it' 

'There is nothing more important than being Free, once you find Freedom you will fly'

had a pretty crap day today, went to the clinic and had to be weighed :( then had yet another blood test to see how my bones and organs are, and my glucose levels but they'll be really low as usual -.- then Mark will know i'm not eating :/ on a plus side ive only had 120 calories today :D yay me.

<3

Baking (:

I made cookies today (: i didnt have a single one or and of the mixture so YAY! theyre for my mum even though i hate her. So i made two mixtures, both basic cookie mixtures but i added melted chocolate sauce to one mixture and then marbled to two together (: then covered them all in chocolate after.

Before i put them in the oven.

they're cooked (: and huge!

mmmm look so good, and tempting!

oooh...

I found an amazing website today, it works out BMI, fat %, lean body mass and all sorts :D the link is http://www.scientificpsychic.com/fitness/diet.html
^enjoy :)

So its said...
waist to heigh ratio : 0.36 (no fucking idea what that means, a ratio of over 0.5 is bad)
fat % : 9.6 (essential fat is between 10-12% so yay!)
lean body mass : 99.5lbs (so i could technically still lost 10.5lbs of fat?! wow best get started)
underweight by 7.9lbs (liar)
interesting....


Im actually rather pleased with my results, apart from my lean body mass! WOW i have 10lbs of fat on my body, jheeze that needs to go!


go ahead, try it out lovelies :D