100, 98, 93, 88..

yes, they are my goal weights. 

5'7 
cw: 110lbs
lw: 102lbs
gw: 100, 98, 93, 88.. it will never end. It started at 100 but being 10lbs away scares me! when i get there what will i have? nothing. so i lower it and lower it until i simply cannot continue. 


I soubt i'll ever actually get to any of my goal weights, i am 'recovering' i have an eating disorder assessment (again) on thursday to see what treatment i'll receive this time. yes i was in recovery before, i was in hospital and then i was shipped off to a bloody clinic! complete waste of the tax payers money, i got out and restricted that very day. so here i am. 

I have had a terrible day today and i will make up for it tomorrow! 
meal plan for the rest of the week :) 
Tuesday: 
breakfast- one cup black coffee.
lunch- one can of diet coke.
dinner- new potatoes (200)
Wednesday:
breakfast- one cup black coffee and a slice of toast (50)
lunch- soup (100)
dinner- one veggie quarter pounder and salad (200)
Thursday:
breakfast- one cup black coffee and a slice of toast (50)
lunch- sandwich (100)
dinner- pasta (300)
Friday: 
breakfast- nothing.
lunch- nothing.
dinner- jacket potato with beans (230)


I MUST STICK TO IT!!!

i usually eat under 600 calories per day, it used to be under 300 but my mum found out and now i am force-fed 3 meals a day -.- i dance 5 times a week so i do burn a lot but its still not enough..

Allow me to introduce myself,

Wow this is confusing.. not quite sure how to actually use this but im sure i'll have it all figured out soon (:
*ahem* allow me to introduce myself, i am August. I live in London. I made this blog so i can talk about everything, food, exercise and well, more food! 

'Some people who are obsessed with food become gourmet chefs, others get eating disorders.' - Marya Hornbacher

I am a dancer, Ballet & Contemporary. Ballet is my life and i hope some day i will be a professional ballerina <3 

My beautiful new pointe shoes <3