I had my appointment at the clinic on Friday.. I was the fat girl. I saw three or four other girls there, either inpatient, daypatient or outpatients and they were all so amazingly thin and beautiful. I felt like a hippo invading a skinny party -.- i hate it.
They assessed me, took a blood sample and my blood pressure and i have a follow up meeting on wednesday. I am so scared. They'll weigh me and see that im fat and dont deserve to be there, maybe they'll think there's nothing wrong and i can come home and continue to lose weight? oh god i do hope so (:
If they say that (which they won't anyway) then I'm going to go down there and smack there for being morons.
ReplyDeleteHope you're okay, weird not having spoken to you all day!!!xxx
i no exactly how u feel
ReplyDeletebut remember they are ILL they are that thin and emaciated because they have been destroed by the eating disorder. There is no way u can just be that thin without hospital treatment...
seeing how thin and elegant they are just makes u wanna cut everything off ur body apart from skin and bone but u gotta just look after yourself honey its like dog eat dog in those places especially on the whose thinnest looks.
My nurse always sed to me when i thought this.. "remember where u are [ed clinic] ppl wouldnt put u in here if u didnt need it, look how far youve come and look how far they have to go to work to get outta here"
keep ur chin up mrs :)
xx