So, there i was sitting in German, miss was marking my coursework and all of a sudden my phone vibrates. I quickly walk out of the class and answer it and guess who it is? The fucking ED clinic. Yes, they would like to book an appointment -.- but i sort of liked it, they called me! not my mum! not my dad! MEE! yes. they trust me (: so that cheered me up a bit, i am still terrified though! 3rd December, 10am Vincent Square Clinic. Shit scared. But im hoping itll go alright though (:
I have a new food plan (: It is a three week plan, until the appointment and each day will be under 400 calories, except for fridays, thats 500 as a treat :D i hope i stick to it, my restricting skills are so crap atm i find it so hard not to eat -.- im so fat.
Any way a new motivational song i have fallen in love with :D
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright).
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright)
^The Middle- Jimmy Eat World. YES.
je t'aime <3
good look with the appointment and the restricting honey
ReplyDeletei'm in a similar situation i've got to go to a clinic too but i dnt want to go there to be told ur too fat to be classed as anorexic but at the same time i dnt want to spiral into restriction and not be able to stop and force me to go in patient do u feel lkie this or just me? lol
xx
thanks (:
ReplyDeletei feel exactly like that! Like when i walk in the door i know everyone will look me up and down and think 'what the hell is she doing here?' it scares the hell out of me :( but i guess its not like that, they know that it doesnt matter what your weight it- itll be fine hun (: xx
Hi, this is my first time commenting on here. :) Good luck with the appointment, and I hope you're doing ok,
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Thank you Night_Flower (: i appreciate it x
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